Horse Sense....
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Ok, so it's Day 4 of Sodium Vitamin C and I'm loving it. I love the way that I am feeling and it definitely cuts my appetite down. In fact, my biggest issue is understanding that I'm not hungry. Because I'm not and my brain is finding it hard to compute this fact. So, I have a tiny amount of food and Boom! I'm full. The second biggest issue that I'm having is recognizing that I don't need Sodium Vitamin C. I know! Go figure. But all jokes aside, come 3 pm in the afternoon my body is craving it.
Wait...let me back track here. You should never, ever take herbs or supplements every day and the reason for this is simple - herbs and supplements originally were used to kick start the body. Let me say that again, Herbs and supplements kick start the body. They were never intended for daily consumption. They were also supposed to be used in the way of, Hit hard and hit fast on the body for the first 48 hours and then drop it right back or take a complete break for a day or so. This is not usually how we use our herbs and supplements now, we let them do all the work not help our body to heal itself.
Anyway, back to my 3pm craving. I'm finding it really, really hard not to have it today but I know that 4 days will be my limit and I also know my Energy is getting high. Almost too high. But you have no idea how much I wanted to keep on taking it. Maybe it is a psychological thing, It's so good I want to continue taking it. Like a chocolate bar. But let's face it, it's noticeably cutting down my calories, my skin is looking amazing and I'm feeling great with lots of Energy. Trust me, you would want to take it, too.
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It's 8am, Day 5 of Sodium Vit C, I feel amazingly great and am craving, craving more of it. I know! And I thought I was totally in balance, maybe not. However, I am in season and it's smack bang Full Moon Energy so technically I should be eating more, having more salt and chocolate and because of Full Moon I will be holding onto more water. I am holding onto water, but my chocolate intake is no more and even slightly less than normal and my food intake is definitely down. I'm not seeing a weight loss but as I've explained, I wouldn't at this time of the month anyway. It is a time of abundance not sleekness.
But I have to talk about the Moon Energy a bit here. I personally love Moon Energy. I find it deep and intense which suits me. But overall I'm happy so the intenseness makes the happy happier. And I like riding the waves of emotions. That's my perfect thing. However, we all have a shadow side and if by some nasty chance a Full Moon hits at the same time as my shadow sides raises its head or I haven't worked with my food properly or my hormones are out, things get messy and it's not a fun time. But that's rare and not this month, thank Spirit. But when I talk about Moon Energy this is what I'm talking about. What you are feeling is magnified. You can put on a happy face for other people but the Moon talks directly to your Soul. What is sitting there will be intensified. So, Moon Energy is not good or bad just a time for you to see what's not working in your life and drag it kicking and screaming into the light.
A time of kick a** healing.
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Well, I got to 1.47 today before I gave into having Sodium Vit C and within 2 minutes of having it my body was like, We love you, thank you. I'm just going to run with this and see where it takes me.
M was good today. Actually, better than good. We're smack bang in Full Moon but she was like, Did you know I used to be called this? and whispered her old name. She also showed me that she heard Energy so we had a good conversation today and she also showed me a new place she loves being touched. This was huge because she's a bit muppety about people touching her. She's not what I would call a free and easy, touchy feely, free loving to everyone kind of girl.
A deeply connected time today.
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So, we were down at Te Awamutu races today and I've got to say it was an awesome day. Spirit stood with us. However, in having said that, Spirit have been constantly with me over the last 10 days. It hasn't been easy with the young one leaving and Spirit have made me dig deep. To go right down to the depths of who I am and what I believe in. So, it's been hard. To check where my foundations are. To see what works and/or if something doesn't and to look at my core foundation and see whether I am on the right path. And it takes courage to look at the bare bones of your life. Te Awamutu was the result of that looking. Yes, we did well but that's not the point. I found the second soul part of my life works. But I only found that out today because I had the courage to take time, separate myself from the noisy chatter of people, dive deep into the shadows and look.
And I've found that being with the horses is like when I first started Reading. It's in my soul - and I couldn't have walked away from being a Reader any more than I can walk away from the horses. Does it make any sense? None. There's nothing that I can 100% say, Well, this is how it goes... it doesn't work like that. I just look after the horses. They talk with me about their life, what works, what doesn't and that's it. I pick up their sh*te constantly because horses are really clean and proud and hate standing in muck. I wet towel them down when they get hot, they like that and well, we chat because they love to chit chat.
Actually, now we're talking about this, did I ever tell you how I started working with Spirt?
No? Well, it went like this...I've always heard Spirit but always thought everyone else did, too so I never thought it was a big thing. And I never, ever thought that anyone made a living out of it so I just got on with my life. But anyway, there I was at 23 and teaching Ballroom Dancing over in Austalia. One night I was outside, having a cigarette while I waited for my next client to turn up, looking at the stars and Spirit said to me, It's time to come home. You need to start work. Two weeks later I flew home.
The same thing happened with the horses nearly 5 years ago.
There I was in my lovely apartment, enjoying some sea tinged, soul time and Spirit were like, We're really happy with the work you're doing and we're ok if you want to stop here. However, we have something else that we would like you to do and we think you will love it. It's going to be a bit hard to start with though...
Four days later I met my first horses and Boom! here we are.
On a completely different but same note, it's weird though, because it's quite noticeable some days that I literally can't hear people. However, it doesn't freak me out as badly as it used to. I still don't know how that works though, I don't understand how to consciously walk through that horse door. I'm just there and it's only when a human is moving their mouth and I can't hear a word they're saying that I realize I'm on that other frequency. So, it's interesting that we're a few years in now and I still can't consciously flick in, flick out. I just am. Maybe the why, how and wherefore's aren't important though.
I'm just so f*cking grateful I can.
So, that's been our week.
It's been a deeply dark and troubling time for my soul and was seriously scary there for a moment because I had to look and see whether the foundations I had built my whole life on, were strong.
Whether they would, or could, survive this storm or whether they would falter and fall.
I looked, freaked out, looked again...then I saw.
And I could breathe again.
May Spirit walk in peace with you.
Much love my friends, and of course, my humans.
Caps, me, Spirit, Az, Raph, Chew, Suzy Q, Buzz, Fenny and Flash and Conrad the bl**dy mouse.
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* My house smells like a girl.
** I can walk naked round the house again.
*** Boom, baby! And I found out how to use Sodium Vit C. I knew I would if I continued the journey. Anyway, it goes like this...
If you use too much you get water logged. You heard me right, I feel like Mrs Blobby right now because the salt is holding onto the water. I'm not peeing much and my bowels are not large, if you know what I mean. So, all that happens is the body kind of holds onto stuff when you use too much.
Anyhow, this is how it works....When you have a horse in crisis by either an abscess, open wound, bad fall etc then you use either Sodium Vitamin C or Absorbic Vitamin C to heal the horse. Vitamin C (both of them) are literally my go to warriors because they flood the body with all these amazing good vitamin/mineral type thingys. Sodium definitely works quicker and you use it at 1x teaspoon 2x a day in food or Absorbic Vitamin C at 1 Dessert spoon 2x day in food. If you are using Sodium drop it down to 1 teaspoon a day after the first 24 hours for 2 days (3 days total) then break for 24 hours. Repeat. If using Absorbic then drop it down to 1 Dessert spoon the day after and then 1 teaspoon a day after that. It's easier to use Absorbic as when your horse has had enough it will get diarrhea. At that exact point stop it for 24 hours then go to 1 teaspoon a day. If poos too hard, up to 2 teaspoons a day, too runny back to once a day or once every other day. Sodium works quicker but the dosage is less and you won't get diarrhea with it so you won't know if you are using too much. With Sodium less is more. DO NOT use Sodium when there is swelling.
If you want to try Vit C but are still unsure then use the Absorbic Vit C - you can't get it wrong.
Sodium Vit C definitely drops weight down for a woman. Dosage: 1/2 teaspoon once per day, 2 days on, 1 day off. Absorbic Vit C - 1 teaspoon a day (in juice tastes better, can possibly be 2 but be careful because if you have too much it will give you diarrhea. Too much Sodium will only make you hold onto water.
**** Unfortunately, after trying both the Vit C's and actually experiencing the difference (I ate noticeably less but lost nothing and am still water logged) my first choice has to be Absorbic Vitamin C. Sodium will have it's place but it won't be my first go to.
Remember that your body will always tell you when it has had enough. Don't be a nong. Listen to it.
You're welcome. Your horse thanks you.