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Well, well, well eh?
Here we are once again, at the start of an awesome New Year, and I don't know about you, but this year has been pretty great. Well, it was on this side of the computer, right up until just a few days ago.
Then things went a bit, well, wrong.
I mean, to be fair, I did speak back in January, about how you needed to play on the straight and narrow. That any secrets that you had, well, they wouldn't stay secrets for long.
But I did not think this applied to me.
I was wrong.
And it happened in the most ordinary of ways.
However, before I go any further, I have never said I was an Angel when I was younger. In fact, if you want to get really pedantic, I have quite blatantly, and on more than one occasion, stated the opposite.
Just as well, considering how things have ended up panning out.
But this is sounding really flippant, yet I don't mean it to, because the consequences that have happened, because of the choices I made many years ago, have been devastating.
And not just at the exact moment it all fell out of bed, but continues as I'm writing this, and will continue for quite some time. The fall out just keeps on coming.
The wrong action with the right intent?
Maybe. But as things are happening, it is becoming glaringly obvious that it wasn't then, and still isn't now, a black or white, right or wrong situation. That there were layers upon layers upon layers that decisions, either rightly or wrongly, were based on.
So I've been thinking a lot about this, the great things that have happened over the past year, and the one thing that let me down. And it comes down to this one little word:
Talk to people. Talk to friends, neighbours, anyone actually, just don't keep stuff inside. And when someone says that they love you, but their actions and their words don't back that up, you really, really need to talk to someone.
Because this is where your trouble starts.
By keeping quiet.
But where it really snowballs, is by staying quiet.
This I know.
But I also know that things fall apart, to fall together in the right way. Not in the timing you want, often not in the way that you wish, desire or need but things do work out. And so will this.
And that's what I want you to take into 2019...
Your awesomeness, your differences, your amazingness and your strength.
But most importantly, take your words.
Wishing you much love and abundance and a truly courageous heart
T and Spirit
ps: Spirit let me get part of my Ta Moko then stopped it. Literally. In fact, so much weird shite started happening around it that I said to one of my best mates, Something's not right. Spirit won't let me step forward and I don't know why. The part which is so important that I want done, they won't let me do.
I now understand two things:
1) A Ta Moko is a living entity of all your Spirit people and ancestors who walk with you, combined with your own continuing and constantly evolving, journey of 10,000 miles and...
2) Your Ta Moko is earned.