Tania Kettle

So last fecal count came back just now...

2100 and 1400.

Way better than the 9000 and 10000 that we have had the previous day, but still needs work.

But I have changed nothing.  And these fecal samples were taken fresh, in front of me, and in the correct mooshed up way.

Still waiting on mould/fungi type results tomorrow.

I'm going to speak to my He who knows everything buddy.

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I don't know, just worm the fuckers.

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And I'm doing one last fecal sample. 

I can't not.  10,000 yesterday, 1400 today - oh c'mon, I'm just not that good a person.  I understand that 1400 is still way too high, but how did we drop 8600 worms in less than 24 hours?

Every.  Single.  Thing.  Is.  The.  Same.

Apart from the worm count.

There should be some extremely interesting conversations in the foreseeable future.

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900 worm count.

Our counts are still way too high, so we commerically wormed everyone today.  

Ralphy, Chew, Suz (OMFG she was a bloody rockstar, only took 5 minutes to catch her, and then stood there so cute!), Caps, Az, Mumma who was awesome...and then we had Boo.  

I bloody knew I didn't want to worm Boo by myself.

Well, I was lucky, my buddy from up the road came to do it, and thank fuck he did.  Boo was all good then went, Wait a minute...I don't think I want to... and then he ran round the stable, with both of us, plus Mumma, inside.  Kicked, front footed, ran round again (but faster) and generally caused chaos and mayhem.  

My buddy wasn't having any of it, Mumma just ignored everyone, and I tried to learn new shite. 

Mostly made up of not getting kicked, front footed or squished when Boo scooted under or round Mumma, while my buddy shouted training stuff like, When you lead him and he pulls back... 

Anyway, it was a cool experience and everyone wormed.  

Thank you, Geoff, you're a bloody rockstar.

So, with conversations with Vet, labs etc we still have a problem with why we are having such big discrepancies in worm results.

We are throwing everything round which might be making a difference - Time of day, weather, freshness, Am I doing anything I'm not saying, Full moon, New moon etc.  But nothing spoken about would give these results, so the only (and I use this phrase extremely lightly) thing that we think could have made a difference, is a herb or something I am putting in the food.

This would account for the big difference.

However, I feed differently every day.  So (we think) it might be one thing I'm feeding or two things combining that are giving worms the push.  Because my horses also look bloody awesome in condition.

So I have been left with strict instructions to keep doing exactly what I'm doing feedwise, back to the natural wormer (not to be confused with Liquid Gold natural wormer) and weekly fecal tests.

Because what I forgot to mention is that the guy who has been doing all the tests loves poo.  No seriously, that's his language.  So he's totally on our side to find out what we're missing.  

We're finding our jigsaw puzzle.

But the tummy is so important, for not just physical health but mental well-being, that I've got to get it right.  Because as you know, or might have heard rumours of, there is Scientific proof, that an unhealthy gut is directly related to Anxiety, Depression, Bi-polar and the list goes on. 

Unhealthy gut = Messed up head.

That's not what I want for my horses. 

And you also know that the chemicals in the wormers are no good.  And our horses are becoming resistant to them.  Within a few years Scientists believe that they may not work at all.

Anyway, I don't care too much about that part, I'm more interested in the gut - head link.

Once Boo is weaned though, Mumma runs free with all the horses again, in the whole 8 paddocks, then she'll be put into foal again towards the end of this year.  Then again, Mumma will run free with the horses, until she's almost ready to give birth again.

So I have to learn how to have, and keep, my horses and paddocks worm free.  

I'm really lucky though, that the people around me are also foccussed on finding better ways for our horses.  

So it's a powerful and empowering time.

And we're seeing that this Liquid Gold definitely has merits.  I haven't found my way to use it properly yet, however, we're starting to see that it may have some really good qualities in gut balancing.

But as I'm writing this, again, we have more questions than answers.

And we're starting right back at the beginning again.

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Oh wait...I should catch you up on the other stuff:

So went down to my Spiritual pools the other day.  Damn it was good!  Spirit had been nudging me for a fair few days and then, Boom! there I was.  So good to clean the Senses - they get musty, like a crystal, and need a recharge and rebalance, to rejuvenate.  Well worth the drive.

And it worked out that doing Les Mills Body Combat, the 44 minute one, or the 15 minute mini one, worked way better than my 8.2 km (mostly up hill) walk.  Don't ask me why or how, because it makes no sense to me whatsoever, but I get better results.

And, drum roll please...dropping that teensy, tiny bit of extra weight, has worked better for the Senses.  The fine tuning and tweaking has been phenomenal.  Just lots of tiny changes are giving us fantastic results. 

And I'm so pleased that I walked forward into, or is that onto, the new plateau.

As per usual though, when I do new things around the Senses, it has got me into a fair few bits of trouble. 

I keep forgetting that people like facts. 

And working with the Clair-senses is not like that.  It's reading a book and telling a story.  

It's many layered and multi dimensional.

And it's like being forever 16.  Which is weird.  I mean, as we grow up we should get wiser, and don't get me wrong, I have, but working with the Clair-senses is like being forever 16.  

And a little Aice-in-Wonderland-y.

Ooooohhhhh.....almost forgot, and I'm still refusing to step forward emotionally.  Which is both powerful and empowering, and a really fragile place for me to stand.  

But I've started saying, No, that's not something I'm really interested in which if you know me, is a HUGE achievement.  Normally, I would go, Yeah, I can do this for an hour or two but really hating the thought, and not really liking the reality too much either.  Now I'm just, Thanks, but no. I'm not interested in doing that.

Bloody go me!

At times I worry what is ahead if I don't do all the emotional work though, but at those times Spirit step in and go, Don't you move that fine ass one step... and then they must go into this Spirit huddle, have a tutu and then all this really random shite happens.

Good stuff, but things that definitely sit in the weird and bizarre basket.

So we're still a work in progress, but with glimpses of fucking awesome.

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So that's been our week:

Spirit won't let me move forward until I get it right, and I can understand that, this part is so important. 

And to be fair, I don't want a quick fix.  I don't want a magick bean.  I want my foals and horses to have substance - to be strong and healthy, emotionally, mentally and physically.  So if it takes me a while to get it right, well, hopefully I'll learn other cool shite along the way, too.

Well, fingers crossed, that's the plan.

And thank Spirit for friends who are generous with their time, and know what the fuck they're doing.

And let us not forget the totally random, awesome shite that keeps raising it's head.

Big hugs and horsey kisses from us here, to you there.

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