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And I went too bloody fast today with Boo!

I knew we were, but since I didn't Touch yesterday, I thought we would be fine.

Nope.

Halter putting on was fine, but then I decided to put a lead rope on.  That wasn't successful.  I took it off and we went back to when we were safe.  

I'm mad with myself because I heard the Energy change, and didn't change with it.  Or not quick enough.

However, I'm not perfect, and as soon as I realized that I had opened the wrong door, and we were walking the wrong path, I did a U-turn.  

We ended up having a really good time though, and I'm really pleased that one of his safe places is with me, with my hand on his back.

And on a different note: The Big E is super wounded.

That's emotionally by the way.

The only thing he has said to me all day is, You don't love me anymore.

Don't be ridiculous, of course I love you. But you were naughty yesterday.

Silence.

No running alongside me, in front of me or chatting away. 

Just the wounded look.

I had to stop a lot today and just give him a little pat, so his non-existent tail wagged.

On another positive note, his manners were perfect today.

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Have I told you about our nighttime routine?

That's actual night.  About 10, 11pm every night.  Well, Mumma and Boo also have the big paddock open 24/7 now.  I didn't mean them too, but one day last week I forgot to shut it at dinner time, so Mumma finished dinner and then hustled herself down and refused to come back up, so I left it open.  And it's worked brilliantly.

But, and this is the uber cool thing...

Mumma and Boo will be up the top of the big paddock most nights.  I go out and stand in the little Welcome Paddock, call Mumma and then nicker, and she stops what she is doing, walks down the big paddock, turns through the gate and comes up to see me and get her banana (obviously no skin), with Little Boo following.

She has a little 4 second pat on her forehead, Boo has a pat on his forehead and then we all go off to do our nightly bed things.

It may not sound like much, but I can promise you, that's some special kind of magick, baby.

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So there I was out at 6.30 this morning, playing with Mumma on the lead.  

Well, I have always worked with an Elder teaching a young one, and I do this because it works.  Really well.  

As it did this morning.

Boom, baby.

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Cappy's the happiest TB tonight. 

I finally picked up his summer "night time" jacket and he looks so cute!  Apparently, he likes it too because he just stood there while I mucked around with strap sizes and lengths.  He's such a dude.

Then Chew wanted his back on.  Chew's a bit funny like that.  Could be because of his past, where he was just left out in all kinds of weather to look after himself, but he only likes his jacket off if it is 28 degrees or higher and full sun.  

So, he too is happy.

And I'm so pleased with the Big E.  We've got over our hump.

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Missed the races tonight.  I wasn't really surprised, Spirit are strong here at home at the moment - this pretty much translates to when Spirit say, You're not going, well, you're not going and neither love nor money will change their mind.

To be fair, it's awesome here, like a magickal elf garden, so  I'm just going with the  flow and enjoying the moments we're having.  

Go back to your belief system, these are the keys to your success.

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Wow!  There is so much Spirit Energy here, it is mind blowing.

I'm always seeing Spirit at home here, both in our home and a lot outside with the horses.  That in itself is not surprising, Spirit love hanging with the horses.  But whenever there is so much Spirit I always just want to hold on, because normally there's a reason for it.  Although to be fair, the overall Energy isn't mind blowingly positive. 

In fact, some of the things I have been hearing from farmers is downright stupid and begs the question, Why would someone who has never farmed be allowed to make Farming Legislation changes?

On a practical note though, the All crops have to be harvested by October 1st every year is just not sustainable. 

And dumb. 

I mean, seriously, You just wait here, I'll go get Mother Nature so you can explain to her, how things are going to go from here on in....

I understand education is important and it does have it's place, but it does not, nor will it ever, over ride down in the dirt, hands on life experience.

So either put farmers in as Legislation makers, or leave them the fuck alone to get on with it themselves.  

Anyway, expect some ruffled feathers until everyone realizes that farmers are our biggest export, so don't piss them off.

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Went to baby races today briefly. 

The Energy was very masculine, super nurturing and excitable.  A great combination for me. 

Because the deeper I work with the Clair-senses, the more I need the maleness.

Absolute masculine, Divine feminine.

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I'm trying to do daily video's because I want to share our life with you, not just the big results we get, but the little ones.  I'm trying to take you into my world, but, as you know, What you look for is what you'll see.  

However, we are having the best fun.

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Ooooohhhh almost forgot, am playing round with new herbs at the moment.  I'm always playing with herbs, often new ones but sometimes old ones, in a new way.  Anyway, I'm working around pms/pmt ones at the moment, trying to pre-empt that nasty time of the month where the girls get manky and snarky and mouthy.  Early trials are looking positive. 

And it finally looks as if we have the herbs sorted.  They will be coming from overseas, but they are also costing a minimum of half less and in some instances 2 or 3 times less than what it costs me here in New Zealand.  

Whooo!

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It was crazy at home today.  No races again, instead Spirit had earmarked a rest, relaxation and recharge day today.

So it was a hot bubble bath start to the day, then a gorgeous day of sunbathing.  So nice that I decided to let Az out to roam up by the house.  With Ralphy poo, Suz (who always wanders round the house), the Big E (who has been beautifully well behaved) and me on the deck.

That worked for exactly 3 minutes.

I had forgotten that Mumma and Boo were in the paddock right next to the house, but Az saw them immediately and after seeing Caps and having a Hi! then went galloping, kicking, bucking, a few head twists, calling and then Ralphy poo started, with both Suz and the Big E then getting in on the picture.  Then we had Mumma and Boo on the other side of the fence, doing exactly the same.  However, Mumma would race up and down the fence line in the Welcome Paddock, then take off down the bottom, through the gate and up the hill into the big paddock.  Then back down to Az and co, then back up again.

Obviously, Az and Ralphy poo were put back in paddock quick smart, while Mumma was extremely vocal about me being so careless.

Boo, as I'm writing this, is having a nap.

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Youi know it's insane Spirit Energy here and if I'm being honest it's challenging to see.  Not see that's perfectly fine, but see my path clearly see.  It's like I want to move forward is some areas, but I can't.  I literally can not. 

And there are some False Truth's which Spirit have presented to me, which are not sitting right with my soul.  A False Truth is not a lie, but it is wrong, and somehow it is much worse.  Anyway, to be fair, Spirit presented them to me ages ago, now it's just a glaringly obvious, In my face, can't look away situation.

These things which I can't speak of are literally hurting my soul, and frankly, it is only because I trust Spirit and know they never let me down, that I'm not a hot mess right now.  But you have no idea how much courage it takes for me to see and not speak.  

But I also understand this time.  We are travelling into the Underworld.

A time of Spirit - where the veil between the two worlds is too thin. That there is smoke and mist and magick, elves, goblins and fairies, black smoke and mirrors.

And bucketloads and bucketloads and bucketloads of Spirit.

It is a time of courage, to delve into the depths and walk through the mist, trusting the journey, believing in the process.

On a positive note though, my days are packed to the brim with Spirit and horses.  I'm consistently trying to be smarter, stronger, better, more aware.  Mostly I get it right.  Some times I fuck up.  But those times are getting less and less because when I do, I stay until I have un-fucked it and we are back in a safe place, and then I'm out again first thing in the morning, being smarter, stronger, better....   

I'm also always looking outside the square.  Actually, the young one and I have had many conversations about this.  When you give me a word, I don't just hear a word, I see it, then I free-fall.  Falling and falling and falling and all these words are bouncing and tumbling around me.  

The same with a picture.  

And it's kind of similar with the horses, Spirit give me a picture of what will happen and I kind of work backwards. 

I don't think I'm explaining it very well here, but everything to me is multi-layered.  Colours, words, smells, tastes and of course, touch.  And I'm right inside.

Yip, that's pretty accurate. 

It is a positive sensory overload experience.

Anyway, if you take away the scary as fuck bits, it's fantastically, crazily, awesomely cool.