Horse Sense....
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Mares is cool, the little ones at home are cool, Caps is super cool and Az is a dude.
The girl cows are also happy, well and joyful.
Mares is always standing waiting for me, not for her food, but her massage. It's great and I can't wait to meet her foal.
Was at Cambridge and that was just lovely. Love the vibe there.
A funny thing happened today though, I found some old photo's from about 8 years ago and I didn't recognize myself. These were the photo's before I got involved with the horses, and it was really interesting to see the transition that happened. You could actually see the physical changes happen, as decision after decision after decision got made to be with the horses, the journey we took, and still take and the person I became.
There's no way I'm putting up the photo's, just trust me, it has been, and continues to be, an awesome journey.
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The next stage of my Ta Moko has started, had the appointment and we're all raring to go. On the 26th September. On a positive note, that's Caps Birthday, which is a beautiful clear and direct message from Spirit, that this has been ok'd and happily signed off by them. Yah! However, I was a bit disappointed that it is going to take so long, I was hoping for only a 3 month wait. However, as the young one said, There's obviously things you haven't finished yet.
Right.
He is right though. I always said that I would learn to ride, and then kept putting it off and off until well, here we are, a few years later. To be fair, I have periodically got on a horse and had lessons with Kirsty, down the line, however, I never really committed to it. Other things like my gorgeous touch/play took my attention. Anyway, as you know I've always wanted to learn bareback, so that's my plan with Caps. Tracking down someone who will work with me and the funky way my brain works and is willing to teach me and Caps via touch. To be fair, touch is my second main language after the Clair-senses, and looking back (got to love 50/50 hindsight) it's worked amazingly well in the whole of my life, especially with my beautiful horses. In fact, knowing what I know now, it's the only way for Caps and I to go and to be fair, it's not as if we're in any rush. We've got all the time in the world.
Wish us luck.
Actually, I guess I have to speak about the anxiety that has somehow come and you know, stayed. I don't know where it's come from and as you and I have spoken about before, I have no idea when it might be leaving. However, it's kind of coming and going which is a good improvement. So, I've decided to talk this bitch out. I am verbalizing it when it is here, I don't know whether it's going to work, or is working as I'm writing this but you know, our shadows only take hold when we keep them shadows. As soon as they come into the light, they become smaller, less, insignificant. Well, the anxiety is not insignificant as I'm writing this, but I will not allow this to define me and it sure as hell won't limit me. And since I have no other idea how to deal with this, I'll give speaking about it a go and see how that works.
So back to the riding, we're on the hunt for an older person to teach Caps and me bareback. Older because, I want someone who looks outside the square. Who doesn't work on hour lessons because they know that you work until your horse is at capacity, and then finish - sometimes that's 10 minutes, sometimes 40. Only someone who's been round horses many decades knows this Truth. And we want someone who isn't Instant Gratification man. Someone who enjoys the process and who wants us to enjoy the process as well.
This might be exciting, well, I've got tingly hands.
And I made a bit of a boo boo with Az. This bloody bull has been a menace, and the only one who would stand there and rule the roost was Az. Mistake number 1. Then I didn't work Az. Mistake 2. So, when I finally decided to play with Az today, he was a wide boy. This means he was a total prat. He was turning his ass on me, trying to push me round and generally extending boundaries and forging new limits. Works out he also had a sore hoof but that was an extra, rather than the original sin. My own fault, I know better than to leave a Welsh alone without play for too long. He's a sweetie though and by the end of our time, we were all good.
Or good-ish.
And I was supposed to be in Rotorua racing, but baled. Excellent decision. Well, mostly. Almost totalled the ute again and I swear, missed the guy (or more to the point, he missed me) by a mm. That would have been hard to explain to Insurance, considering car is still waiting to be fixed from January 3rd when I got hit. That time was not my fault. Car was stopped, it was a clear day, no traffic and the guy (galloper, what can I say) reversed into me.
Anyway, apart from today's near miss, this time has been so busy that I needed this space, to be with my horses and Spirit. To re-balance and re-charge and play in Silence.
Oooohhh...calves might not be too far away. Caps was in the Welcome Paddock today, I was politely asking him to move but he was like, Ummmm...no, thank you. And stop talking to me. I can't hear you, I'm a horse.
Anyway, Caps finally moved but then the cows were refusing to move. In fact, they are looking for a place to give birth. They're not 8 to 12 weeks away, we're only looking at days, possibly 2 weeks at the most.
Exciting!
Wait, almost forgot, Mares is hilarious at the moment. So she's waiting at the gate for me all the time, not for food, but massage. So there I am massaging away and then she'll be like moving her head over me pretending that this is no big deal. So I'm like, Ok, fine, I'll go and the next minute she's like, No, wait...come back...
I'm also massaging baby Mares. Now that's a mind blowing trip.
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So, that's been our week: Profound, baby.
Wishing you much love my friends and of course, my humans.
Caps, me, Spirit, Az, Ralph, Chew, Suzie Q, Peanut, Fenny plus 1 and Flash plus 1 and of course, my darling Mares and baby Mares.
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* So Caps, Az and I have gone back to the last place we felt safe. Caps is a real sweetie and if I had any doubts about how horses look after humans, then he is showing me again, how right that thinking is. He is literally taking me by the hoof and walking me through this.
Az on the other hand has got over his hump and is almost back to the super cutie he was. I did say almost because it will take us a little bit, but he's such a dude and so unbelievably sweet.
** So I added new stuff into Mares feed this morning. I'd heard really good things about it, so thought we would give it a go.
Wrong.
Badly wrong.
I get there tonight and little missy is hot. Both literally and figuratively. She was bouncing all round the place (when she wasn't seeing ghosts and spooking) and wanted her massage.
Right. Now.
I, on the other hand, did not wish to massage so much. However, since it was my fault she was like this I couldn't really bale on her, so we massaged. Slowly, gently and all systems firing with our frequency. With the odd pop out of paddock, when motorbikes came scooting round. Then pop back in paddock when they had left.
You know, this is why I work so hard with my food to keep my frequency clear. Not for the days when the sun is shining and everything is roses but days like today, when I need every single sense I own, to be working at full capacity.
The great news is this massaging is a powerful experience and a tool that I had previously used, but as I know now, totally under-estimated.