Tania Kettle

So, I almost backed out.

Well, no surprises there.  But let me back track a little...

So, at 10am we started to shift Buzz and the girls up the driveway to the holding pen, where Buzz would be loaded.  We took the girls because well, Buzz doesn't like leaving his girls behind.  He likes them to be either side of him wherever he happens to be.

All goods so far.

We waited patiently and chatted away to our neighbour, while waiting for truck to turn up.  Took a couple of vid's and everyone was happy and fine.  But the longer we waited the more antsy I became.

11, 11.15, 11.30, 11.45...

The young one went back home to text guy about how long truck might be.  I followed.  Guy was busy, so he text the number of the truck.  Young one rang him and he said, Sorry, been held up, will be there in about an hour.  

By this time I'm like, Sorry, Mares is waiting for brekkie, got to go.  Will be back asap.  But I was feeling guilty.  And watching the young one patting Buzz was not making me happy.  In fact, it made me a bit you know, weepy.  I told myself to harden up, but it was weird that it was taking so long. So I went to walk out the door to feed Mares (hours late by this time) I turned and walked back in the house and said to the young one, I'll just have a quick chat to Spirit.  Now when I say stuff like that, I do this weird Witchy thing and odd things happen.  

The young one has also seen this work like 20 million times.  And weird stuff always happens - sometimes bizarrely good and sometimes a definite, and big fat NO.  But whenever I do it, we accept, 100% and with no doubt, the end result Spirit give us.  And it goes like this:

Hey Highest Light Spirit peeps, this is your friend, Tania.  We have a bit of a situation here.  Liam and I are good with Buzz going, but there seems to be issues around it.  So we are ok if Buzz stays at home with us, but if that is going to happen, he needs to be de-balled with 48 hours, and possibly de-horned.  Just let me know.

I blew out the sage stick, waved good bye to the young one and headed off to feed Mares, who by now is hours and hours and hours late for her feed.  I get 6 minutes away and my text goes.  It's the young one:

The truck guy just called me.  He's changed his route, he'll be here within 10 minutes.  

Worked out it was 4 and a half.  I turned round, got home and parked up, walked up driveway and the truck was just coming down the driveway.

With Buzz inside.

The guy waved to me as he passed.

The young one and I walked the girls home, got in the car, fed Mares and then hung out for the rest of the day.  

But wait, I had also said to the young one this morning, Oh, don't worry about cooking dinner, I've got it organised today.

Which would have been fine...apart from it was steak.  

We ended up having Fish Finger sandwiches.

But you know, this whole six weeks have been crazy.  I started off with a plan...

and ended up with this...

No relation to what I started with at all.  Not even kissing cousins.  But you know what, it's worked out ok.  Better than ok in most ways, because what has been left has in reality, been fantastic.  It has made our home and horses stronger and more amazing, with a depth that 2 months ago,  I didn't even know was possible.  

People often ask, What is it like living with a Psychic?  

This.  

It's like this.

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So, everyone's trying to find their new mojo.  Caps is still wary of the girls because they have horns, but is getting his brave on.  Fenny is scared of Caps because he's so tall, Az is always ready to flex his butt and stretch his hooves, but is not sure whether he's happy or disappointed that he's not.  Both Caps and Az know the girls are preggers, so Az seems to be super careful round them, but on guard, just to be on the safe side.

The girls are a little lost because they never did anything without Buzz, but Fenny has a little glint in her eye, which tells me that maybe she's going to love her freedom when she gets going.  Flash tried to dip her head and show her horns to Caps today but to be fair, she didn't try very hard, and Az just glared at her and she looked guilty, and backed off.

On a funny note though, Feeny and Flash have decided they would like brekkie now.  I'm like, Why? but never the less, they rock up with the horses and stand there waiting, looking hopeful.  Now I know they're well preggers though, they get brekkie.  Actual brekkie not just baleage.

I think this might work out ok.  Super great to get up and have everything where I left it though...

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At Te Awamutu today, it was cool.  A lovely vibe, but there's one Mother of a Full Moon coming, because the Energy of the world is large around me at the moment.  This means that your fears are bombarding me.  Think of standing in the rain without an umbrella, but instead of rain it's other people's thoughts, fears and base Energy which are coming down on you.  Yeah, that's what it's like for me.  The sound of the world is too loud.  I'll make sure I take some serious time out tomorrow to recharged and re-energize.

On a funny note though, remember when I said I needed to practice the heat in my hands, learn how to move the Energy more?  Well, Mares has decided she doesn't want the heat, but does wish to have my fingers and hands massaging her.  Naturally, before dinner but also now at brekkie.  I've tried using the brushes but she's like, Nah uh Missy, I want those fingers, start massaging and I'll tell you when to stop.  So after all this time and all that kerfuffle about, Don't touch my tummy, I don't like it I now have a bloody 600 kg horse who wants nothing more than to cuddle.  

Constantly.  

And be massaged.  

It's an odd life, baby, but it's a beautiful one.

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Now Mares wants the heat.  

To be fair, it's localised areas where bubs is pushing and putting on pressure, but I'm learning how to localise and make it very hot, very quickly.  The interesting thing is Mares is not getting freaky about it, she's curious, as if she's not quite sure how this is happening but not surprised, which in itself is surprising.  It's as if she is pleasantly surprised that I as a human can do it, but not surprised in the big, circle of the Universe.

So, that's been our week:  Peaks and troughs, valleys and mountain tops.  There's been tears, but there's also been some stunning sunsets.  Ones that just don't come along every day, so it's hard to say it's been a bad week, because it hasn't.  And when the sunrises have come, it's been of the blow your mind kind.

A quite beautiful, soul filled, week.

Much love my friends, and of course, my humans.

Caps, me, Spirit, Az, Chew, Ralph, Suz, Peanut, Fenny and bubs, Flash and bubs and of course, my darling Mares plus baby Mares.

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Me in 2019...