Horse Sense....

 

 

I saw Mares baby's heartbeat today!!

I am soooooooooo excited.  I cannot believe how unbelievably happy I am.  It's kind of snuck up on me though, I thought I would be happy but just nice about it, but instead I'm like boring everyone silly with how big our foetus is, how much Mares is glowing, pregnancy hormones...

But talking about that, the anxiety hit again today.  I led her up today (with Mr B chatting next to me) and that went ok so I decided to lead her back too (with Miss M chatting next to me) and that didn't go so well.  I heard her Energy go high and then she started getting ready to misbehave.  Miss M took over and then Mr B growled at me for even thinking of doing this without him.  

Nice result.  Not.

Anyway, something is causing this anxiety.  

I've narrowed it down to either strawberries that I have taken to buying and eating on the way to the stables, or hearing Mares Energy too loudly.  I can't do anything about hearing her Energy nor do I wish to, that's what keeps me safe.  But it could be the strawberries are sprayed and I'm taking a reaction to it.  I normally keep away from strawberries anyway for this exact reason, spray get into the grooves of the straweberries and gets stuck there.  It may also not be strawberries.  I'm also not cancelling out that it's Mares feed which is wrong and putting her too high.  Anyway, I'm just putting stuff out there.

I'm trying to be really kind to myself right now though and remembering to celebrate the things I'm doing well, and that everything else is a work in progress.  

And I never ever forget that I may be getting the best possible end result, at any given moment.

I was also talking to the young one tonight and I said this is why I'm so anti pills.  Anxiety tells you that there is something wrong, it's your body's way of telling you that it's in crisis.  Taking a pill takes away the crisis.  

That's the last thing that you want.

Own where you're standing.

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But anyway, Mares and I overall are doing well.  She chats away to me about what's working or what needs changing and generally we are doing ok.  She's also decided she wants some salt, which overall is ok.  I can share mine, so she's munching away on that.  She's not keen on salt licks, but I don't blame her, I wouldn't be either.  But I love that Murray River.  It's got some beautiful vitamins and minerals in it and apparently Mares knows this too, because she loves it.  

All salt is not created equal.

And all my boys and girl at home are happy and joyful, if a little soggy.

I can't complain though, we have got the odd drop dead gorgeous day and when we have, the whole family is out doing a little sunbathe.

So, that's been our week:  

Take what you need, leave the rest.  But you know, people think my work is all sunshine and unicorns, rainbows and fluffy kittens and a lot of the time it is.  I am lucky to do this work but sometimes it also gets a bit dark.  The boogey man that lives in the shadows, lurking in corners and in the alley's that you never walk alone, well sometimes, just sometimes, he does come out to play.

Oh, almost forgot, no races for me this week because we didn't have any in racing.  It was really weird not being with the horses though and just proves my point, as much as I can be happy socializing without horses, horses are my first choice of company.

Oh, and did you know that when a mare is pregnant her body temperature changes?  

I know, how super cool!  

Mares is like, Check me out, babe, come and have a touch...

Wishing you much love my friends and of course, my humans

Caps, me, Spirit, Az, Ralph, Chew, Suzie Q, Peanut, Mares and baby Mares, Buzzy, Fenny (plus 1) and Flash (plus 1).

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* And back to the food, when I get it right, Hola, baby! I really get it right.  However, when I don't...  Anyway, all jokes aside, I would have sworn that I was putting on weight but that is quite patently untrue.  My jeans don't lie.  I won't be able to fit them another week from now because they're uncomfortably loose now.  My hair has done another growth spurt and is looking amazing, although I am kind of sad the pink vibe didn't stay, it was super cool.  And my skin is glowing.  Those things are working really well.

The Clair-senses are also working.  I would like to say really well but that is both true and untrue.  As I was talking to a girlfriend about today, when the Clair-senses are murky, you can only feel an intent.  Call it Base 101 Intuition, and you doubt yourself.  When the Clair-senses are really working, you see the face without the mask.  Intent and action are super clear.  Like a glass ceiling.  

I'm finding this level disturbing.  

And getting myself into sooooooooooooooo much trouble.

How do you answer a question that hasn't been physically asked?

Not is the correct answer.  You do not say a thing.

My bad.