Horse Sense....

 

 

Suzie Q is driving me a little bit nuts.

She is not participating with me.  

Exactly like Chew used to act. So, now she understands everything that I want and on a good day she allows me to pat her for 3 seconds.  You can actually count it.  1...2...that's enough, Boom! she's gone.

However, she's starting to get that I am underwhelmed with these teensy, tiny acts of kindness and that I expect more, of which she is not giving.

Everyone else is like, Dude, just put on the halter...

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Mary seems happy but I can't say for sure until I take her jacket off and it's been either too cold, wet or I've had less than 5 minutes to spend with her. It's ok, she needs time to heal.  However, she is talking.  A lot of it is a bit of a whinge, like if I've been noticeably late with her food but she is talking.  And her door is open.  I talk a lot to her.  She seems unsure about exactly how much I hear her, because we are now working without boundaries or limitations, and this is different to what she is used to.  So she hasn't joined as a partner with me yet, but she will.  But this takes time, it's a vulnerable place, not just for her or me, but us.

And yes, I do see my foals but not anywhere near as much as I did.

I've learnt that I do best working with a horse on a daily basis.  

I've tried doing it less but it doesn't work anywhere near as well.  The Energy needs depth and commitment, and somehow you fall into the Energy.  I'm not explaining this very well but the Energy is big, large and scary yet, comforting, loving and warm.  It's like Spirit give me a snapshot of the essence of us and then that's all I see.  So you can't do it on a part time, 2 or 3 times a week gig.  You go in, and you commit.  

And you don't stop until you've got it.  

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Races were good.  A few surprises but you know, nothing too unusual.

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Almost missed trials this morning.  Didn't check the time and was down with Mary hanging out and the next minute I heard the car start and then the horn started beep beep.  Not my best work trying to run over grass with holes. 

And on that note: Mary and I are getting our mojo on.  I call her every time I go to see her and she always answers back and comes.  That's good work.  Food is giving me a bit of a pain though.  I use food and she improves condition but then her tummy goes back.  Change food, condition goes down, tummy comes up.  So, it's a work in progress.  But we're working together which is great.  And she's talking, that's all I care about.  However, today she was eating and I was standing next to her, leaning into her body touching, and then over her.  That's excellent work.  Her right side is fine, but her left side is still, Thank you, but no.  But anyway, I couldn't do this a month ago.  

And on a similiar but different note, when I try a new food I always see a difference within 48 hours and on day 3 I know for sure whether I am getting results.  Actually, that's not true, I always get results it's just, is it the results that I want?  Anyway, as soon as I know the food is not working, I bin it and I've been asked the question, Why don't you just finish the food?  You've bought the food and the horse doesn't care.  

Good question, 99 but that's not true.

Every single day I know a food is not working for Mary and I continue using it, it takes me a day and a half (for every day) just to get back to where we were before I got it wrong.  To me that's wasted time.  

And there's always a horse hanging round with an iron stomach who will eat any thing, any place, any time who wants what Mary doesn't.  

And on a wonderful note, there is a beautiful thunder and lightening storm happening here right now that is so loud, the house is shaking.  

Super freaking cool.

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Suzie Q is giving me the biggest surprises at the moment.  She wanders round the place and goes from paddock to arena, back to paddock as and when required with the tribe.  No hassles.  Just no halter.  But all of my horses wander round without halters.  She's just skipped the but I can wear a halter when needed part.  However, I work with the theory that this is building trust.  She's showing me she's willing, understands and is perfectly well-behaved.  I'm showing her that she can trust me back.  

Hopefully, this is working. 

Mary is improving but I still don't have it 100%.  But I'm being picky now because overall there is noticeable improvement.  She allows me to lean against her, as if I was breathing, and then lean over to her other side while she is eating.  She also allows me to scratch her ears and touch her forehead and generally is emotionative.  

And she always calls.  

However, I know she's not 100% so we're going into tricky territory.  Because it's now going to be how much of a vitamin or mineral I'm using, too much, too little, dosages etc and this varies from horse to horse, as it does human to human.  And it's really easy to get lazy.  To go, Well, she's improving so that's good enough and it's so not.

But it is exciting.

I will put video up as soon as I'm able to show you her tummy.  I've got it right when she just stands there, not moving, not flicking her tail.  

As I'm writing this, today is not that day.

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So, that's been our week: success in a zig zaggy line.

Wishing you much love my friends and of course, my humans.

Caps, me, Spirit, Az, Ralph, Chew, Suzie Q, Buzz-the-Bl**dy Bull, Fenny and Flash

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* I know what's wrong with Mary, and I know how to fix it.    

Let me explain...Spirit speak to me in many ways, but the most common is they send me people or situations which have a repeat theme.  Maybe I'll pick up a random book or turn on the stereo and hear a particular song or maybe it's the tv and the same topic is showing, and Spirit keep doing this until I have my lightbulb moment.  

So, Mary's been improving but when I had a look around her, I saw I was only getting surface improvements but I couldn't understand why?  Because I should have been getting some really great results.  

Soul results.  

So, I took a step back and tried to sit in the Silence and see what I was missing.  

But I was getting nothing.  Or so I thought.

1 day...2 days...and then Boom! today.

I was lying in bed this morning and I put 1 + 1 + 1 together and Boom! I know what she's got and I know how to fix it.

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OMFG! I just hit the barn!  No, not the little one, the big Mother A** one that fits 20 horses in, and the feed room down the bottom.  

In my defence, I was backing up to the open door to the feed room to take out my feed, while trying not to hit Addy's car at the same time.  And good on me, I did not hit Addy's car.  However, somehow I forgot to check how close I was to the barn, so hit it doing a fairly decent speed.

I'm lucky Johnny likes me.  Addy not so much as I'm writing this.

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** GO SLOW!  GO SLOW!  GO SLOW!  GO SLOW! is written in my diary.  I'm so Instant Gratification girl.  Now I know what I'm dealing with though, I want to do everything, right now.  Which of course is not helpful.  Because it's a really fragile balance that we have now and pushing too hard will tip us too far one way or another, so I'm pretty much sitting on my hands.  

However, Mary is super happy this morning - bucking, kicking and a little rear or two.

She's on the mend.