Tania Kettle

It's been super crazy here.  

The little one that I see, I growled at the other day.  I don't know whether it's because he's an orphan that his horse/human door never closed but he chats away to me all the time.  And when I haven't seen him for a couple of days he's like, Tarn! Tarn! and calls me until I go see him.  

Which is super cute.

But I've been so busy that I literally didn't have time to see him, but he kept calling.  So, when I saw him I was like, I hear you, kiddo but I have been super busy and I haven't been able to come down.  And you knew I was busy.  That's naughty.  You call me ONCE and if I can I will come.  

He told me he understands and has been particularly good but even as I'm writing this, at 10.29 on Friday night, already he's, Tarn...

And on another note the races were excellent.  We're fine tuning, polishing and tweaking.  Some things are becoming glaringly obvious while others are still sitting in the fragile stage.  Lots of people were talking to me tonight which is nice, other people only speak to me in the dark and some others are still trying to find their courage.  It is what it is, I guess.  Anyway, Spirit tell me they have this, so I'm just trying to keep out of my own way.  To not put limitations or expectations on anything.  Spirit have never let me down in the past and they won't start now but let's face it, I've worked too hard to be a one night stand...for either horse or man.

And other peoples horses still talk to me but I'm so careful how I communicate with them, that unless you are watching me, and are familiar with my normal way, you wouldn't notice now.  But as I'm getting so little, actually that's not the right word, so fragile, that's not right either - think of complex and intricate communication in crystal clear clarity with no loud noises, movement or largeness - I'm finding that the communication doesn't need much to feed it.  Recognition allows acknowledgement.  The slightest movement from me communicates thoughts, feelings, words and colours in emotions, to the horses.  The horses show me they acknowledge this connection and everyone's happy.  

The Energy got a bit loud towards the end but I just went and cuddled a horse.  No one thinks this is unusual anymore.   

I find it so odd that the older I get, the more love that comes knocking on my door.

M is slightly humpy but that's ok.  We have a relationship and relationships have bumps.  As long as she's still talking she doesn't need to be emotionative.

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Caps has got an abscess again.  Liquid gold and huge dosages of Vitamic C - 1 tablespoon 2x today and then once again tomorrow and then 1 teaspoon a day (Absorbic not Sodium) - and he'll be fine.  

We had a change about this because a) Caps decided he wanted to play and b) He absolutely, 100% refused to have liquid gold.  So, if you have a sense of humour, there I was trying to put the liquid gold on and there Caps was limping away from me, just out of reach.  

After trying for 10 minutes, I gave up and decided to take Az out to play and then realized that sore hoof or not, Caps also wanted to play.  So, after Az and I had hung out and Caps had just stood there glaring at us the whole time, I took Caps out to play.  We had fun and if Caps was ok about his hoof then who was I to complain?

He did eat the Vitamin C though - 1 tablespoon of Absorbic Acid to 2 tablespoons of Sodium Absorbic Acid.  This mixed between 5 feed bowls as everyone eats everyone else's food.  

And on another note: Missy is finally emotionative again.  It's taken 4 days.  However, she now gets that I'm not going anywhere and we work through things.  

But on a weird note: one of my girl foals has taken a dislike to me.  She's quite aggressive which is not right.  However, I don't believe I've done anything wrong, in fact, I know I haven't.  So, it's weird that she's gone from happy to see me to ears pinned back and mouthy.  And walks towards me doing this.  But it's not like she's against me, Tania, rather me as a human.  But that's ok, the horse/human door cannot be rushed, forced or bribed.  And let's face it, if it was easy, everyone would be doing it.

And we have time, she will learn to love me.  As I will, her.

Anyway, mares/fillies always make me work harder.  They ask for everything I have, then have a poke round to see if there's anything left.  Geldings/colts, on the other hand, just love me and I always, and totally, fall head over hoof easily and quickly with them.

I mean, seriously, how can you not love something that is so cute, testosterone fuelled and loves to snuggle.

I'm in love just writing about it.

Anyway, that's been our week.  

Lots of love, lots of magic, lots of Spirit.

Wishing you much love my friends, and of course, my humans.

Caps, me, Spirit, Az, Ralph, Chew, Suzie Q, Buzz-The-Bl**dy-Bull, Fenny and Flash and 1 dead mouse decaying behind the wall.

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* My eyes are 100% back to normal.  Thank f*k.

** I got a little bite today!  I know, Quelle Horreur! but all jokes aside, it wasn't a biggie and it didn't come from my little missy.  You've heard me talk for ages about first the horses smell the imbalance in the body, then the horses do a Miri-Miri.  When they do this they are are nuzzling the body back into balance and then to finish off they give a little bite.  I believe what the bite does is kick start the healing process of the body.  

Remember when Caps used to do that to get my Thyroid back working?  Well, that's what happened today.  My little cutie up the road (the bigger one) sniffed, snuzzled and before I had time to think about it, because I was working with the little ones growing pains in his back, bit me.  

Then when I told him off, he sulked.  

Caps used to be the same.  He would be like, Fine.  Stay out of balance.  Turn his back on me, sigh, then sulk.  Which is exactly what happened today.  The little (big) one and I talked about it, had a little touch so we both knew we were ok, and left on good terms.

My other little foals were super fine though.  The paddock where little Missy is, I've changed round a bit and so did not participate with any of the foals in there today.  Our boundaries are currently being laid of wants, needs, desire, respect, love and kindness and these cannot be rushed.   We go at the speed which everyone is comfortable with.  Little Missy will tell me when we can move forward again. 

*** So, I get home today and everyone has moved themselves into a new paddock.  Down by the driveway, by the pond where all the lovely new grass is.  This would have been fine but I had locked the gate and no fences were down.  So, I drove in, saw the horses and went, Oh, they look so cute!  Wait...

Caps just stood there happily munching grass and was like, Nothing to see here, Tania.

And on another note, Caps has decided he will fix his hoof himself.  He found my Comfrey and has been chowing down on that.  It seems to be working, although I still give him purple anti-flam and a Miri-Miri.  I have decided though that when my Comfrey grows back I will grow some in the paddocks so that the horses can eat it when, and as often, as they wish.  In hindsight, I should have done this earlier.

**** And walked into my shed tonight and realized that my 20 million inside the house mice have just rehomed themselves...

***** I turned down the tv show.  I work with the Clair-senses opening the horse/human door which as you know, means that I work with that which you cannot see with the naked eye, that which you cannot hear with the naked ear and that which you cannot physically touch, and I wasn't able to talk about any of this.

I couldn't talk about the magic.  

However, it's an awesome opportunity and I wish the person who does do it, the very best of luck.